Inner Healer

"In the West, we talk a lot about self care. And we also discussions about the selfishness of self care. For the past year, I've been trying to figure out what self care means for me, as I try to take care of everyone else. Last night for the first time in over a year I went to a yoga class for the first time in over a year for stress relief. It was a small thing, yet as I listened to the instructor and practieced various moves I was able to be in my body again.

 

I was able to be in my body as a person who was not filled with rage, sadness and fear, but as a person who had the right to exist, to take up space, to be vulnerable. I don't know why it matters so much to have someone else tell you in practice that you should take up as much space as possible, that you have the right to feel and should feel.

 

Intellectually I know these things, but somatically it matters to be in community and hear these things told to me. I am thankful to Em, for welcoming this sarcastic, traumatized, angry soul and reminding it I can still be soft and vulnerable and accepted.